addition is fun

1 + 1 = 2 (josh, jess)

and 2 + 1 = 3 (josh, jess, jay-z)

and 3 + 1 = 4 (josh, jess, jay-z, henry)

whaaaaat!? well, a miracle has happened. after over a year and a half of trying, and being told we would never be able to have a child naturally, it happened. if you had to assign a number to our chances of becoming pregnant on our own, it would be a 0.1% chance. [side note: thats better than most forms of birth control]. there really is no scientific explanation at all, its truly just a miracle.

on may 2nd i threw up a couple times, felt awful, and thought i had the flu. the next day (our anniversary) i stayed home from work, not wanting to give anyone the flu. i went to walmart to get gatorade and saltines, and bought a pregnancy test (mostly for kicks). when i went home i knew the test would be negative, but i figured i would check anyways. somehow...it said positive. i started sobbing uncontrollably and double checked the test and the instructions that came with the test. then i called josh and told him. at first he thought i was joking. then it really sunk in that it was for real. in a shocked voice, he said "well...happy anniversary...!?"

we decided not to tell anyone about the pregnancy until we found out the gender. because we shouldn't have even gotten pregnant in the first place, i was extremely worried about the baby. thankfully i haven't had any serious problems so far. my progesterone levels were low, so i've had to be on a supplement for 2 months. i'm really glad the doctor caught it. besides that, i've just had normal fun morning sickness. i've puked in a lot of interesting places (outside my office, at the mall, in parking lots, while driving, in trash cans, etc). for the past few weeks i've been feeling a lot better (which is amazing), and i've been gaining lots of weight. by my 8th week i had lost about 7 pounds from morning sickness. since then i've gained about 9 pounds back.

15 weeks

today marks 15 weeks, and we found out the gender. we had both been feeling that it was a boy, but were uncertain the last couple weeks because statistically with sperm issues (ew, sorry), it should have been a girl. turns out our original hunch was correct: we are having a boy!


Henry is due December 31, 2011, and we couldn't be more excited. ♥

ps: the fact that we are miraculously having a baby does not change anything we've been through. and we are well aware this could be the only baby we'll ever have. i think that our experiences have really just made this blessing that much sweeter.