um hi. there have been some situations going on lately that have made me think even further about baby things... so if anyone is sick of me talking about infertility and babies and whatnot, just come back later...
i have always believed that everything happens for a reason, and i find this point is continually proven right. i can honestly say now that i am GRATEFUL for our struggles with infertility. i know i would have been appreciative of being pregnant without those experiences, but i dont know exactly how appreciative i would have been... [[side note: i'm not trying to say we are amazing people because we struggled with infertility, and i know that compared to most people with infertility--our time dealing with it so far has been extremely short.]]
i literally MARVEL all the time at this baby growing inside of me. every time we go to the doctor and i hear his heartbeat, i cry. every time i feel him move, i smile. every time i look at an ultrasound picture or video, i am excited. yes, i am scared out of my mind to actually give birth and for everything that comes with it, but i am so eternally grateful that it all gets to happen to me.
i was put in a really hard situation last week with a friend, and it was one i wasn't ready for. i literally had a mini break-down, but had to realize i can't change how other people think or feel. so instead of dwelling or judging, i just need to move on and focus on little henry and the true miracle that he is. and i am glad i do get to see him as a miracle, no matter how he turns out.
i hope that those who are dealing with infertility will be able to feel what i am feeling someday. and i hope those who are pregnant and have children of their own can truly appreciate it, and see the miracles that they are blessed with.
thanks for reading ♥