i just finished reading the perks of being a wallflower. i quite enjoyed it. and in the last 50 pages or so i found some parts of it that really got my attention.
"I would die for you. But I won't live for you." I think the idea is that every person has to live for his or her own life and then make the choice to share it with other people.
When I was driving home, I just thought about the word "special." And I thought the last person who said that about me was my aunt Helen. I was very grateful to have heard it again. Because I guess we all forget sometimes. And I think everyone is special in their own way. I really do.
So I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them. I think that if I ever have kids, and they are upset, I won't tell them that people are starving in China or anything like that because it wouldn't change the fact that they were upset. And even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn't really change the fact that you have what you have. Good and bad. ... And really, I don't think I have it any better or worse ... I don't know. It's just different. Maybe its good to put things in perspective, but sometimes, I think that the only perspective is to really be there. ...Because it's okay to feel things. And be who you are about them.
i loved all of these excerpts. especially that last one. it really struck a chord with me about this whole infertility situation. while much worse things are happening to people everywhere, i am still allowed to feel sad/bad. hopefully our next results will be more positive, but we are ready to hear either way. just about 2 weeks left til we can test again. until then i am trying not to dwell on it. i've been pretty good about it while waiting, which is encouraging considering i'm not super patient...
in other news, we are going to disneyland!!! i probably won't post until after we get back and get all settled again. we are really excited, but josh is the most excited. like...a 5 year old. which i have compared him to in the past, so i suppose it is fitting. have a good rest of the week, and i'll be back soon with lots of pictures and stories! ♥