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am i losing my touch?

i used to be THE GIRL to go to for advice. boys, friends, family, relationships, school, fashion...you get the point. if anyone needed advice of any kind, i was the girl they came to. lately, people havent been asking me much. maybe this is because i dont live with my friends, and dont make enough time for my friends (which i really need to work on, before they become ex-friends). or if they do ask for advice, its about reading guys and whatnot, and for some reason i just cant seem to put forth any inspiring words of wisdom. its like now that im in a relationship, i forget everything that leads up to that point. how to tell if a guy is interested, if you should ask him out, etc. lately when people tell me their boy troubles though i just kind of sit there and nod. then they go "so what would you do?" and then i sit there some more, and try to think of something, and my mind is blank. then i say something lame or uninspiring and the person is like "ummm ok.. whatever."

i mean i know boys can be lame sometimes, or hard to read or whatever, but what am i supposed to say to people? "Yeah, boys are dumb." like thats believable. no one feels any empathy from that statement just because they all know i already have the comfort of being in a steady relationship. therefore, all my views on the stupidity of the male sex dont matter. well thats just great. so yeah, i cant even comfort people about their problems because the whole time they are thinking "..what a load of crap.."

its like when girls get a boyfriend everyone just thinks theyve had this perfect life history with guys. hmm, lets go through some jess history...just to get my point on why this is complete bs.

1. i never had a boyfriend until i was 18 (see #2). i dont even think i went on any dates in high school.
2. i came to byu as a freshman, met a 23 year old, and started dating. i broke it off after a couple weeks, and 3 months later i find out hes getting married.
3. i went to usm (university of southern maine), dated a coke-dealing, pot-smoking, self involved skater boy who was manipulative in every way.
4. went back to byu, some guy i had known for 3 or 4 years found me on facebook and we started talking a lot. he told me he thought i was "the one" [freaky, i know.. i was like umm thanks...im going to pretend you never said that], and then he called me drunk on my 19th birthday.

there are some other interesting stories, but for the sake of not talking about ex's and making people uncomfortable, i will stop.

so honestly i cant tell if it is my advice that sucks, or peoples perspectives of me now, or if i just cant get interested enough to give people logical answers.. i really do think i have lost my touch. now what will i do with myself? giving advice to other people doesnt make me feel helpful/insightful/fulfilling anymore. im going to have to start picking up some new hobbies or something!

to end on a happy note, although my past dating history has been full of jerks and interesting stories, it has now reached a new level.

a happy one.